As if you may never touch Earth again

Love is brilliant,
smooth.
Charming and hectic.
And as it happens,
depending on how and when;
Tis truly divine.
My heart melts at the thought
of never being alone,
nor with anyone else.
Yet, a bitch love can be,
and what a ride.
Fear and tension.
*As if you may never touch Earth again.
Smell the comfort
of being comfortable?
So much has happened this year
to be so grateful for.
No regrets, no remorse.
I am no doubt, a leech
So dependent on what I have
Almost neglected and took, sadly
advantage of the very love that saved my life.
Almost...
But love is strong,
this love is... At least
And kept me in good grace.
God, how I owe my life to that.
All of it.
*I'd never even imagined/ how this could ever happen
For me.

December 14th - The Bigger Man?

The bigger man,
and the pressures of Babylon
Society of imposter's
like gambling Love's pure light
Headway through tunnels of frenzy
and chaos
For one moment in the sky,
where everyone sees him, or you rather
Life isn't that simple
It's difficult
Like evolution, it takes time
to move from A to B then from Z to 1
and back
Medication? Just dilutes things
Seeing blind men
become things
(If only I had a stick)
My heart may very well not be infected
with concern
Compassion is fickle
Like men and like women
When our agenda is self natured by default
(A woman taught me that)
and I'm exhausted already
Who knew that this world could maintain ownership
in just my regression?
Oh I shall overcome like Job
and his things
Excellence in all sincerity
When and where our intentions mean more
than our fear
Then again - my fear is a whole different story

Street Lights

This past week has been tiring. I still can't get to sleep at night. Nothing new there. The good news is; we're pretty much finished with all of the tracking for the album. And now we wait more..............

Music is the only thing that separates my mind from the day and night. 6th sense I suppose. I often wonder who else out there on this huge planet feels the same way or similar? Are they making a connection with themselves or someone else? Are they coping with a tragedy or loneliness? Or are they just having a good time? It amazes me how we so easily take music for granted... If only we knew how to just stop...

And listen.

Lately I've been so drowned out. I've lost focus on what I REALLY need to be doing. It seems like whenever it gets cold outside my body and mind shut down. Maybe I just need warmer clothes. Ha! The night before last Joel and watched Julie & Julia. It was such a good movie. It made me want to do something more. From start to finish. Then my mind magnetizes back to music. Maybe I should start a 365 day photo/song blog. Give insight and interpretation. That should distract me enough I think. But then... Not. Ha!

"Seems like street lights glowing happen to be just like moments passing in front of me so I hopped in the cab and I paid my fair see I know my destination but I'm just not there. In the streets... life's just not fair."

I really do have the life...

Today our neighbor friend Steven came into the studio and laid down some trumpet for "The Sun & The Moon" It sounds so good. I am on pins and needles ready to release this album for you guys. We'll be waiting a while for all the mixing to be done but it should be well worth the wait. We'll get our fresh new promo out there soon so I can 'constantly' remind you of the big day. Lol Music is pretty much the reason I breathe.

Things are happening fast...

I've been slow this morning. Unusually slow. I think I was thrown off when I tried to go to the gym and our office changed the door password without telling us. Halloween weekend was great. We didn't go out. Joel and I had our good friend Jen come over and we cooked and made festive deserts and played with Rufus. Oh and watched Harry Potter all day haha. Somewhere in the mix we became closer with some neighbor friends of ours. A married couple Tim and Michelle (2 kids Edison and T.J.). Had a few too many and learned a lot from Tim. It was great.

Sunday we were in the studio with our friend April Stephens. She came in to track some violin for us on 2 songs. That was epic.

Then last night Joel and I had a healthy conversation about us. I think we've gotten so caught up in music and the record and networking with all of our new friends here in Austin that we have sort of put our relationship on the back burner. I can only hope that the feelings that came out last night start to show and we focus more on keeping the basis of "us" strong and trustworthy. Communication really is everything. It's plagued me lately as to what can be said online and what can't. I'm sick of thinking about that. I can only be me. I'm tired of hiding certain things because of who I may "lose" from our circle or who may shut off being supportive of our music. To me, if you're not down, you're not down. Why should I waste my time and energy sugar coating that? Ha!

Anyways... here's a pic of the talented April Stephens in the studio. I can't wait to release this record. This one is so sincere and raw and to the point. There's a few touchy subjects and I'm looking forward to seeing the feedback from people. For now...

Entourage or Loyalty?

Yesterday was great. I'm happy that love is so healing. & time plays such a great role. Some good friends of ours stopped by and visited us on their road trip. We had a great time showing them Austin. We had great food, drank here and there and played with our dogs. It was awesome! I learned a lot more about excellence last night and this morning. How it's crucial in the work that we do. In life. It's so important to me to make an impact on something or someone rather than be remembered for my arrogance or pride. In my defense, my denial of that arrogance is pretty thick and it's tough to catch sometimes. I had this dream last night in my sleep from 1am to 4am where my fingernails kept coming off. I've dealt with the teeth breaking dreams before but this was a totally different vibe. I didn't feel inadequate and scared. It was more like I felt way too empowered that my hands couldn't stand it and gave up. I felt more abandoned by myself than anything. And, that sucked. I've been chasing my own feelings around in circles in my head for pretty much all my life. I need to quit that and just step up. So, here we go.

Pic of the Day

This was at my parents house in Padre.

I thought I'd share a picture of our baby Rufus. He has really been my joy this weekend. Crazy to think he's already 6 months. This weekend was great. We went down to Padre Island to my parents house to celebrate my Mom's 45th birthday. We threw a party and did a house show for all of her friends. Good times. And....tomorrow we hit the studio for our first session. Eeek :)

A Lesson Learned

You know, people will come

and they'll go.

People will disagree and seperate,

completely.

What makes us is our movement on.

When we fail and fall,

prevail and continue...

is what landmarks us.

People will come

and they do go.

Sometimes it hurts and more often than not

it's for the best.

The very best.

I was thinking this morning how grateful I am for those of you that have come and stayed. Those of you that have come and fought, laughed and cried. I have burnt many bridges in my time and wondered why I couldn't cross it later on. It's only fair to agree to disagree. I think one of the greatest things we have as mankind is that we continuously grow and mature. I would only hope that I could be bigger and let whoever burnt my bridge cross again... if they needed to.

Weightless

Today has been so strange. I've had this nervous hum in my gut and I can't figure out why. A close friend of mine taught me to embrace my shifts of consciousness; that it would be easier to transition to the next step, that I'd learn from myself and everything that I am. She may not see this blog but I hope she knows how thankful I am for her. I've really felt weightless lately... like nothing can move me. Nothing. I'm realizing strengths in me that I never knew I had. I have spent too much time looking for something or someone that could help justify my gifts. Amplify them. Not necessary. I'm no longer scared of the future. I'm eager. I see the wars we've started only growing and if there's a change in the universe, in the stars, or even just right here... I'll be ready with my horns, my voice and most importantly love.

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I set up this blog to express myself through: rants, poems, thoughts, haiku's, crayon drawings, pictures, songs lol...and to share news on new jerusalem, our new record, website...all of it.

i'll try to keep it updated cause i know you'll all subscribe and be waiting for my next words ;-) soooo first...check out this sunset shot i got from our front door last week. electric!!! xoxo